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My Heart and Other Black Holes Kindle Edition

by Jasmine Warga (Author) Format: Kindle Edition
4.4 out of 5 stars 3,262 ratings

A brilliant and heartbreaking novel perfect for fans of Thirteen Reasons Why.

Aysel and Roman are practically strangers, but they've been drawn into an unthinkable partnership. In a month's time, they plan to commit suicide - together.

Aysel knows why she wants to die: being the daughter of a murderer doesn't equal normal, well-adjusted teenager. But she can't figure out why handsome, popular Roman wants to end it all....and why he's even more determined than she is.

With the deadline getting closer, something starts to grow between Aysel and Roman - a feeling she never thought she would experience. It seems there might be something to live for, after all - but is Aysel in so deep she can't turn back?

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  1. Reading age
    12 - 16 years
  2. Print length
    323 pages
  3. Language
    English
  4. Publisher
    Hodder & Stoughton
  5. Accessibility
    Learn more
  6. Publication date
    10 Feb. 2015
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  10. ISBN-13
    978-1444791549
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"At times poignant, bitter, and funny, this narrative captures [a] unique voice that questions what it means to die-and to live." -- Booklist (starred review)

"My Heart and Other Black Holes is alive with intensity, gut-wrenching honesty, moments of humor, and-of course-heart. This is an extraordinary debut by a striking new voice in YA fiction that left me in awe and moved beyond measure. Not to be missed." -- Nova Ren Suma, author of IMAGINARY GIRLS and 17 & GONE

"With high intelligence and a massiveness of heart, Warga gifts us with a novel that has the music of Mozart, the logic of advanced physics, and the vision to see the link between them. This is something utterly new, a book that is kinetic and beautiful and unexpectedly life-affirming." -- Chris Lynch, National Book Award Finalist for Inexcusable and Michael L. Printz Honor-winner for Freewill

"[The book] addresses serious issues with complexity and humor . . . thoughtfully presented." -- School Library Journal

"Earnest and heartfelt . . . any teen who's ever felt like an outsider will be able to relate to Aysel's and Roman's fully realized characters." -- Kirkus Reviews

"Debut novelist Warga addresses adolescent depression and suicide with honesty and grace" -- Publishers Weekly

"Debut author Warga unflinchingly tackles the grim subject matter with empathy, sensitivity, and honesty, without trivializing her protagonists' disturbing thoughts or emotions . . . [with an] utterly endearing romance." -- The Horn Book

"Warga delves honestly into the very difficult issues of teenage depression...sometimes sad, sometimes funny, but ultimately filled with hope." -- Voice of Youth Advocates (VOYA)

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A brilliant and heartbreaking new novel for fans of John Green's The Fault in Our Stars and Rainbow Rowell's Eleanor & Park, about two strangers who want to die... and, in meeting each other, learn how to live.

I'm getting higher and higher and I feel the swing set creak.
'Be careful,' he says.
'Why?' I'm not thinking about being careful. I'm thinking about one last push, of letting go, of flying, and of falling.
'You aren't allowed to die without me,' he whispers.

Aysel and Roman are practically strangers, but they've been drawn into an unthinkable partnership. In a month's time, they plan to commit suicide - together.

Aysel knows why she wants to die: being the daughter of a murderer doesn't equal normal, well-adjusted teenager. But she can't figure out why handsome, popular Roman wants to end it all....and why he's even more determined than she is.

With the deadline getting closer, something starts to grow between Aysel and Roman - a feeling she never thought she would experience. It seems there might be something to live for, after all - but is Aysel in so deep she can't turn back?

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  • ASIN ‏ : ‎ B00NT7YSR2
  • Publisher ‏ : ‎ Hodder & Stoughton
  • Accessibility ‏ : ‎ Learn more
  • Publication date ‏ : ‎ 10 Feb. 2015
  • Edition ‏ : ‎ 0
  • Language ‏ : ‎ English
  • File size ‏ : ‎ 2.0 MB
  • Screen Reader ‏ : ‎ Supported
  • Enhanced typesetting ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • X-Ray ‏ : ‎ Not Enabled
  • Word Wise ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Print length ‏ : ‎ 323 pages
  • ISBN-13 ‏ : ‎ 978-1444791549
  • Page Flip ‏ : ‎ Enabled
  • Reading age ‏ : ‎ 12 - 16 years
  • Customer reviews:
    4.4 out of 5 stars 3,262 ratings

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Customers find the book emotionally engaging and well-written, with one review noting how it realistically portrays depression. The character development receives positive feedback, and customers appreciate its humor. Moreover, the book provides great insight, with one customer mentioning how it embeds the idea of perspective. Additionally, customers value its approach to teen suicide prevention, with one review highlighting its unique perspective on the topic.

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49 customers mention ‘Emotional content’41 positive8 negative

Customers find the book emotionally engaging, with one customer noting how it provides amazing insight into the real struggles people face.

"...The thing I love most about this book is it’s positivity...." Read more

"...really fantastic book with some clever ideas and an interesting approach to a difficult subject...." Read more

"A very sad but good book to read." Read more

"I very much enjoyed the science related parts of this novel. At best though, these are diamonds in the rough...." Read more

17 customers mention ‘Writing quality’17 positive0 negative

Customers praise the writing quality of the book, with one customer noting how well the author depicts depression, while another mentions it is an easy read.

"This book is beautifully written. I had tears in my eyes more than once as I read through...." Read more

"...At best though, these are diamonds in the rough. Tiny gems of writing that add a little depth and a philosophical tint to an otherwise very beige..." Read more

"...The descriptions of depression were powerful and heartbreaking, and I think this book could help break down some barriers...." Read more

"...One thing I really liked about this book was that the author depicted depression really well, with Aysel often referring to a ‘black slug’ that..." Read more

11 customers mention ‘Character development’11 positive0 negative

Customers appreciate the character development in the book, with several noting the well-done character exploration, and one mentioning they are not depressing to read about.

"...I loved the way Warga captured some of the inner turmoil of each character, and sometimes in such a small, subtle way that these snapshots were all..." Read more

"...The characters were believable and realistic, and I could see them both clearly in my head...." Read more

"...I really love the character development from both characters in the plot. It's very natural in my opinion. Great reading overall xx" Read more

"I loved this book. I love the characters, I love the back stories, I love that it isn't soppy or romantic, and I especially love how accurate it is...." Read more

4 customers mention ‘Humor’4 positive0 negative

Customers find the book humorous.

"...I really loved Aysel from the first chapter, she was funny and I really connected with her...." Read more

"...It's humorous and bittersweet in all the right ways, and I truly found it hard to stop reading...." Read more

"such an amazing book 10/10 read. Emotional and funny, captures what I was looking for" Read more

"...are easy to relate to for those experiencing depression and add a touch of humour whist still being dead serious, although are careful not to mock..." Read more

4 customers mention ‘Insight’4 positive0 negative

Customers appreciate the book's insight, with one noting how it really embeds the idea of perspective, while another mentions it serves as a great escape from the real world.

"...A great escape from the real world, that brings you back to reality." Read more

"its a beautiful book that really embeds the idea of perspective, and how the human mind has perculiar intakes of emotions...." Read more

"...I think it was a great insight in to some of the thoughts and feelings we all have at some point in our lives." Read more

"What a heavy, but enlightening and beautiful story! I thoroughly enjoyed it. The character exploration was so well done...." Read more

4 customers mention ‘Teen suicide prevention’4 positive0 negative

Customers appreciate the book's approach to teen suicide prevention, with one customer noting it provides a different perspective compared to other books on the topic.

"This book covers the topic of suicide and a suicide pact – if you feel that these topics may trigger you this is not the book for you...." Read more

"...It gave a different side to suicide and alternative thoughts going through a suicidal girls mind." Read more

"I liked how this book was different from other books about teen suicide in that it talks about suicide pacts...." Read more

"...Trigger warnings for suicide." Read more

3 customers mention ‘Beauty’3 positive0 negative

Customers appreciate the book's beauty, with one describing it as movingly beautiful and another noting its subtle approach.

"...the inner turmoil of each character, and sometimes in such a small, subtle way that these snapshots were all the more powerful...." Read more

"...spoken about are triggering, but have been dealt with in such a beautiful manner...." Read more

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  • MRS R E PECK
    5.0 out of 5 stars A Beautiful, Moving Book with Huge Positivity Within
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 29 August 2019
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    This book is beautifully written. I had tears in my eyes more than once as I read through.

    The thing I love most about this book is it’s positivity. I know, that’s a weird statement for a book about two severely depressed teens who make a suicide pact. But, it’s about letting people in and allowing them to help you to heal. It’s about the beauty that life gives us, as opposed to the devastation that death affords.

    I’m not a teen, but I could relate to the feelings of despair and overwhelming sadness. The metaphor of the black slug living inside Aysel that eats everything inside her; all feelings, light, everything, is fantastic.

    It’s just a beautiful book. I loved it.
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  • Bex
    4.0 out of 5 stars A Snapshot Of Sadness.
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 1 March 2017
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    "Anyone who has actually been that sad can tell you that there's nothing beautiful or literary or mysterious about depression".

    Warga captures that so perfectly. I fully expected to find this book uncomfortable. It's a book about suicide, so it was never going to be a happy read. But I didn't expect Jasmine Warga to display the brutal, ugly truth of how people suffering through depression, social anxiety and grief feel. She doesn't pretend to understand the way everyone feels, she doesn't sugarcoat anything or make it seem like a small issue. In fact, Warga delicately captures some insight into the confusing, sad and destructive moments of two lives as they commit to making a decision to end everything.

    Whilst each reason might not make sense to everyone, to Aysel and Roman these reasons are everything. They are enough to need to escape. Aysel has been planning her own death for a while. Probably since the fatal moment her father caused the death of one of her schools best known athletes. Aysel feels like she's constantly weighed down by his shadow; that somehow she will become just like her father - unpredictable and violent. Roman has been planning the same. Since the death of his sister, a sister under his watch during that time, he can't escape the guilt. But he can escape this existence.

    Both complete strangers but with similar sadness inside them, they join an online Suicide Partners scheme. It's essentially a website to connect you with someone else who wants to die, but is afraid they won't be able to follow through, they might get caught, or they need someone to go through it with. The sad truth is just that. A sad truth. Things like this happen all the time, and often get brushed under the carpet.

    I loved the way Warga captured some of the inner turmoil of each character, and sometimes in such a small, subtle way that these snapshots were all the more powerful. It just goes to show how important the tiny signs, which seem so insignificant, can be telling us so much about a person and how they truly feel. Things like pulling down your sleeves to cover your hands when you're anxious, picking at food because your mind is somewhere else, the urge to tell silly jokes in social situations; these are all things close to home for a lot of people, and this cleverly woven element to the story really affected me.

    Whilst these elements force you to feel that heaviness of being depressed, Aysel and Roman, despite being desperately sad, hide their sadness well. In fact, they are not depressing characters to read about at all - Aysel is in fact really funny most of the time. It's just that her depression is a part of her as well. And I really like that this author has been quite frank about this, that awareness of depression not being "just a feeling" but rather being something tangible you can't escape is really quite powerful.

    The romance element of this story is kept quite small. The characters are more interested in moving towards their end goal. I did however struggle with the ending. Sometimes endings can be super obvious when lots of hints are dropped, and Warga does tend to spoon feed the reader a little with large clues (which even the characters notice and comment on, they're that obvious) and this spoils the story ahead a little. The ending was therefore entirely obvious towards the end, which was a shame.

    Otherwise though, a really fantastic book with some clever ideas and an interesting approach to a difficult subject. I hope more people read this, if only to open their eyes to what might be happening to those around them, it certainly did for me.
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  • Mia
    5.0 out of 5 stars Beautiful story
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 20 May 2025
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    Such a great book! I’d highly recommend if you’re looking for your next read!
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  • Ellie
    5.0 out of 5 stars Good Book
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 29 July 2024
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    A very sad but good book to read.
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  • Cribs
    3.0 out of 5 stars Too many holes, not enough heart
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 30 August 2018
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    I very much enjoyed the science related parts of this novel. At best though, these are diamonds in the rough. Tiny gems of writing that add a little depth and a philosophical tint to an otherwise very beige novel.

    Not that I’m trivialising the subject matter, but there was just too little character development to truly believe that the main protagonist had real justification to find herself in such a dark place.

    Similarly, the surrounding cast were pencil outlines - lacking in shade. There was no real weight to them to really matter to the reader. Some very unbelievable conversations took place which made immersion into the story difficult.

    Basically, I wanted more from it because it had great potential. It is marketed as a YA novel and perhaps this more accurately highlights how old I’m getting. Maybe I just don’t get it. Then again, maybe there’s just not that much to get?
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  • Alanis Howe-Jones
    5.0 out of 5 stars One of my favourites
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 13 December 2024
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    Love this book so much deffinitly worth the read
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  • Molly Terry
    4.0 out of 5 stars This book is something else.
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 17 August 2016
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    This book is something else. That’s all I can say for certain. I’m worried this review is going to come off the wrong way, but bear with me.

    It was a slow start, but I’m almost certain it’s supposed to be that way. It lacked urgency, which of course mirrored Aysel’s depression in a very poignant way. The descriptions of depression were powerful and heartbreaking, and I think this book could help break down some barriers.

    But it’s a tough read. It’s very heavy (not literally) and difficult to read too much in one go. It also made me feel isolated and sad in a way I haven’t felt in a long time. For this reason, it was a struggle to pick up because I didn’t want to feel too strongly what Aysel was feeling.

    The characters were believable and realistic, and I could see them both clearly in my head. Aysel’s sarcastic comments were often pretty dark but they made me laugh – sometimes inappropriately. The book is filled with a layer of black humour. However, it’s also filled with a lot of beautiful thoughts.

    There’s not much else to say. I’m not sure how much I enjoyed it. I’m not sure what star rating to give it. This book made me feel things in a way no other book has. But I’m not sure if that’s a good thing.

    My Heart and Other Black Holes is so heavy it makes you feel like drowning, but it is well worth keeping yourself afloat till the end.

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  • Jianne Mae Guarin Mejia
    5.0 out of 5 stars Great book, very heartwarming
    Reviewed in the United Kingdom on 8 January 2023
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    Can say I was very engaged on this book since beginning to end. I got mixed feelings about the ending since I was expecting it as I read along but at the same time I wasn't expecting it from the very beginning. I really love the character development from both characters in the plot. It's very natural in my opinion. Great reading overall xx
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  • Akatsu yujiro
    5.0 out of 5 stars 娘よう
    Reviewed in Japan on 23 March 2024
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    気に入ってるようです!
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  • Clara Addari
    5.0 out of 5 stars My heart and another wonderful book
    Reviewed in Italy on 1 March 2015
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    Really loved this book!! I believe that the way the sorry between the two characters develops is real and truthful. Also the fact that while you're reading, you can feel there is a real experience behind it. You have to fight back. ❤️
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  • anonim
    5.0 out of 5 stars If u like psychological books than buy it :)
    Reviewed in Turkey on 8 May 2021
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    Book was too good to read. While i was reading i have a lot of thoughts about being dead and alive. This book show us that border and book changed my mind. And i know so well that mental healths are so important if u like something about psychology or i can say that if u like girl,interrupted and to the bone like basically if u like psychological stuffs this book is for u hope u like the book.And im so happy about the main character,she is turkish :))) thank u jasmine wanga lysm<3
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  • Annie
    5.0 out of 5 stars Already one of my favorite books of 2015
    Reviewed in the United States on 14 March 2015
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    I'm completely on the Jasmine Warga wagon. This was such a striking debut novel, and I can't wait to see what else she has in store for the future. Writing a story about two teenagers teaming up to accompany each other to suicide is not going to be an easy topic, but I fell so completely in love with the characters gradually. I think most people with depression and/or suicidal thoughts will find something that resonates with them. Don't think that it's all dire bleakness and despair, though. Throughout this whole thing, there was a subtle, growing component of hope. Things in life don't get fixed completely, magically or overnight, and that's definitely the case in this story. I've seen more than one comment here and elsewhere of people questioning the idea that love can cure depression or how it's a bad idea for two suicidal kids to get involved because what happens if they got into a fight or broke up. Personally I think it's irresponsible to push the idea that people dealing with disease can't find hope in each other. That's the whole point of support groups: people coming together and connecting with someone who understands. It's also not the only, sole way of getting better. It's just one tool of the many. Human connection is so important, and I really love that this was represented in this particular story.

    Sorry for the tangent. I just have to say this was a beautiful book, beautifully written with beautiful characters. I devoured it in one sitting and was weeping in anticipation of the ending and weeping all the way through the ending. I think it's a great, honest, hopeful story, and I hope Warga will keep on writing.
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  • Kindle Customer
    5.0 out of 5 stars Loved it !!
    Reviewed in India on 1 June 2021
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    I loved the how the author framed the connection between life and science ... And how a single person can change your whole life .... Its best describes the 'ray of hope'... Loved the book ... Can read it again too...
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